Ramblings

A few interesting things worth mentioning happened to me this past month. I guess they sort of relate to my quest in finding love and my place in the world.

I met this guy on a popular dating site called Plenty of fish a few weeks ago. He's nice, funny, sweet and charming. Everything I look for in a guy. We started chatting lightly for awhile, but up until recently it's become a little more serious. He wants to meet me in person, but I'm a little apprehensive about following through and meeting up with him.

I'm not sure what to expect if I do go out and meet him. We actually made plans to meet, but by the end of it I called it off citing that I would have been too busy that day. I think it might have put him off on me because our conversations haven't really been the same since.

Now that I think about it in retrospect, I'm pretty sure that I was just afraid to have been judged by him if I didn't meet his expectations. Rejection has become such a moving force in my life, that I base my daily social interactions around it.

I guess this is one aspect of myself that needs to be addressed before I can have any hopes of leading a successful and healthy relationship. But I mean, how would I even begin to fix these issues when I've been knocked down so hard in the past?

Thoughts? Suggestions?

Another story worth mentioning is an incident that happened a couple of weeks ago while at work. You see, I work at a local convenience store where I interact with a lot of different people.

Well, anyway there was this old man, who I would say was in about his early to mid 60's who came in to gamble on the poker machines. And every time this man would come, he would ask me these seemingly innocent questions. Stuff like "Oh what's your name?" "Do you work here often?"

I never really thought anything of it and would answer his questions. After awhile his questions got a little bit too personal. He eventually started asking me things like "Do you have a boyfriend, Are you Married, Do you have Children?" The way he would talk too would be in a sort of whisper where I would have to be close enough to him to hear it. I think he did this purposely so he could stare at my chest, WHICH I caught him doing a number of times..

Anyway, one day he comes in while I'm working, he sits down at the machines and starts talking to me. by this time, I'm only answering his questions with one word reply's. He then goes on to ask me if I was a shy girl, because every time he came in, I never really said much. I tell him yeah, that I'm just a little bit shy. And he says "Oh. I don't want to say too much then, but are you sexually active?" Oh boy, that really took the cake. I just looked at him, and walked away without answering.

It's crap like this that really makes me angry. I can't seem to attract the younger more age appropriate men. It's always the old, greasy gross me out kind of men who are always ogling me. Ugh.

So my question to you readers is, Have you ever had to deal with perverted old men at your work place? If so, what did you do about it? Leave me a comment, and tell me your story. Would like to know if anyone out there can relate to my experiences. Ahaha.

Well, I guess this is it concering my little update. I hope you all enjoyed reading it. And remember, if you like what you see, subscribe to me. Let me know you're reading!

Until next time

Peace&Pie everyone!

~Annie